The last two and a half weeks have been absolutely incredible!

Before this treatment, I felt broken and ashamed. I felt like a burden to all of my loved ones, guilty that I was unable to show up for them in the same capacity that they were showing up for me! Most of all though, I felt fragmented! As if my memories and thoughts were broken into a million tiny shards. I was unable to complete a full thought process! It felt like every nerve in my body was short circuiting, constantly firing! As much as we all try not to compare, it still can be hard not to. I had always gone with the idea, my symptoms aren’t as extreme as others so I’m doing just fine! Truthfully, I only learned within the last year that I have had nightmares my entire life. I always just assumed when people said oh I also have bad dreams, we were talking about the same type.

Within 5 minutes of my first injection I felt liberated from my trauma! Suddenly the world went quiet. As the tears streamed down my face, all I could think was I’m free! I closed my eyes and rested! That’s it! No wandering thoughts, no side tracking, no pieces rapidly flying through my head!

I continue to wake up each morning slightly in shock but so incredibly thankful to still feel fantastic! I fall asleep soundly without nightmares! I haven’t woken up with any new bruises from them either! I continue to be able to refocus my train of thought when it starts to wander. Even though I can still feel some tension in my body at times I’m able to genuinely tell myself it’s not needed and it begins to fade once again. I have stumbled across a few different things that normally would have set me off on a tailspin possibly even for days at a time. Instead it was a small blip on the radar. You have given me an inner peace and freedom that I don’t believe I have ever experienced!  Regardless of the fact that there is still work to do, I sincerely appreciate being able to have the space to live my life once again while still healing my injury!”